every life needs a purpose. a God-given purpose. a calling. a reason for God's grace to grant us one more day on this earth, in this body. after all, what is the real purpose for our life? to bring God glory, (soli deo gloria). so when we start to live for ourselves, it is sin, and it is futile. (all is vanity!) we will find no real lasting and sure pleasure or fulfillment. as Christians we will have the Holy Spirit conscience nudging us that something is wrong and will not be able to be as committed to whatever worldly ambition we pick up, that diverts us from the calling of ministry. in some of us, this surfaces as indecisiveness in regards to major, etc.

if you're not living for God, what's the point of living at all. He gave you this life, you need to give it back to Him. otherwise, quite honestly, He has no use for you and might as well stop your existence prematurely.

But if we are living for God! Think who is on our side!! (if God is for us, who is against us!) and we can know that are desires (since they are His desires) and are passions and goals and priorities (all fashioned to the Makers) will be fueled and funded by the CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE! how insanely awesome. i'm getting so hyped because, guess what... i know exactly what my calling is. and it just happens to be one of the greatest! not that there is distinction in the Kingdom, i think. but here goes...

MOTHERHOOD. eeee! MY MINISTRY IS TO RAISE BABBYS! (aka babies) and i simply cannot wait. God has filled my being with an ardent desire and excitement for the life of a home-maker! i've begun to fill my days with tasks that hone my wifely skills (cooking, diligence in maintaining a clean room, respect for the man over me no matter what (right now, my father) and showing joyful reverence to him no matter what kind of man he may turn out to be, and a more temperet spirit in general. plus, a pretty appearance.) and my motherly skills (i've learned how to potty train a two-year-old, discipline toddlers and pre-schoolers, keep the hearts of rebellious teenagers in a very sinful day and age, manage a home, care for a baby, prioritize house-hold duties, grocery shop, teach/instruct, dress appropriately for juggling all the above, and realize the importance of extended family).

God has blessed me, not only with this desire so i enjoy learning how to master my purpose in life, but also He placed me in a home with an excellent mother who has already done a great job demonstrating child rearing and teaching in the home. i am so grateful i will have her around in the years to come to give me advice constantly. i only hope my father lives that long too because his tender heart is full of keen insight, i know, but it's locked very deep behind protective layers.

God also gave me a wonderful job this summer, as a nanny to a family with another superb example of motherhood, bethany aeyrs. i have adopted much of her shopping list as my own now and it is through the experiences with her children i've learned the vast majority of my new found knowledge on working with kids and seeing the world and understanding rebellion at their level.

"she who rocks the cradle, rules the world." this calling of motherhood you may mock as unfulfilling compared to a career but, it is honestly the most important thing a human being can do. since we are such temporary beings (here today, gone tomorrow) raising the next generation is far more impactful than raising profits for a paper products company. plus, God designed and specifically told us, this was a woman's role.

but i have another calling too! because yes, i am not married yet and it may be a long time in coming, and this one is also biblical! to share this passion and wisdom with other young ladies! the ministry of discipleship, relationships that help each other walk through life in a better, more God-honoring manner. :)

and i'm starting on this one already too in that, i'm taking Jessica Spink out and about this afternoon to spend some quality time and establish a relationship. i plan to share with her the fun of "dumpster diving" at the salvation army for cute clothes on the cheap! she expressed a desire to spend time with me on Sunday, just yesterday, and i only realized now how wonderful this is of God to throw at me and help me start off already with another of God's charges to young women! woo hoo!

here we go, Lord! please bless our endeavors since they are for Your Glory. :)